As strong as I am I do have difficulties at times keeping hope alive. Usually happens when I have a connection and the connection pulls away for in my humble opinion, no good reason. I am a good person, I would’ve made a great Mother and always wanted a child but alas the universe decided against that for me. I have my fur babies that of course I spoil but I hate it when people who have children act as though I’d be bad for them. As I would harm them or not follow what they do to raise them. Makes me feel shitty, just because I am not a Mother doesn’t mean I am not good with kids. And pulling away because of the kids hurts me and makes me think they feel I’m evil or not worthy of them or their children. I am worth more than that. But it’s their loss once again. Same bullshit different day.